Words to live by. to love bye.

My Aunt has this wonderful word that she made up, "Isness" as in, this is the isness of the situation.

When I first heard it, I thought it was clever and very Taoist. This word has since become a staple in my venacular that is used daily. Can't change it so deal with it.

Below are quotes that I have collected over the years that have helped me, most becoming at one point or another a mantra for a time. I am positive that you will have heard or read most or all of these somewhere at sometime. But when we get thrown into the storm and feel like our ship is sinking it is easy to forget that the sun is still hiding behind the rain clouds. These words have touched me and tought me to bring in my sails and climb to the top of the crows nest screaming "is that all you got" until the storm has passed and the waters are calm again.

I'll warn you..there are ALOT

"If you're going through hell, keep going"-Sir Winston Churchill
"I am the master of my fate, the captain of my soul"-Henley
"The soul knows what to do to heal itself. The challenge is to silence the mind"
"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us"-Ralph Waldo Emerson
"And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years" Abraham Lincoln
We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience” – Pierre Teilhard de Chardin
“The mystery of life is not a problem to be solved but a reality to be experienced.” – Art Van Der Leeuw
"The purpose of life is a life of purpose"-Robert Byrne
"There are no extrodinary men, just ordinatry men in extrodinary situations"
"Strive not to be a sucess, but rather to be of value"-Albert Einstein
“Imagination is everything. It is the preview of life’s coming attractions. Imagination is more important than knowledge-Albert Einstein
"It is not easy to find happiness in ourselves and impossible to find it elswhere"-Agnes Repplier
"In 3 words I can sum up everything I've learned about life; IT GOES ON"-Robert Frost
"The human spirit is stronger than anything that happens to it"-C.C Scott
"A human being's first responsibility is to shake hands with himself."-Henry Wrinkler
"Be kind for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle"-Plato
"It's better to live a half life fully than a full life halfways"-Some guy I met in Europe
"The world is a balance between holding on and letting on-"Oasis hostel bar wall
-See Desiderata (I had written it out here once, but deleted it along with the rest of previous posts)

Courage is the discovery that you may not win and trying when you know you can loose
Honor is standing for what you believe not for what you know
Life isn't about living without problems Life is about solving problems
If you plow the field everyday the only thing that grows is resentment
Compassion is passion with a heart
The only thing in the whole universe people need to control is their attitudes
How a person wins and loses is much more important than how much a person wins and loses
If you only do what you know you can do-you never do very much
There are no failures, just experiences and your reactions to them
Getting what you want is not nearly as important as giving what you have
Going on a journey with a map requires following directions, going on a journey without one requires following your heart
Talent without humility is wasted
If you don't want it bad enough to risk loosing it-you don't want it bad enough
When life knocks you down you have two choices - STAY DOWN OR GET UP
-Tom Krause

Told you there were alot.

PEACE

Just knew it couldn't be drama free....

Wish I could say I was still taking the high road.

Just told EX to do the world a favour and go catch aids.

ooppps.

funny thing is, that's the nicest of deaths I have imagined for him!  I am moving out of the house and leaving with it my hopes, dreams, plans and most importantly animals in two days time. This is rough for me, and yet he has no sympathy and keeps pointing fingers at me thinking that he has done nothing wrong and I deserve this!

so he thinks he deserves to have an easy ride through out all this. he is actually complaining to me that he has to sleep on a couch! oh my you poor poor thing..see this violin im holding..no? it's THAT small!

there's that word again...deserve. it keeps coming up in my posts, conversations and thoughts.

is this an ideal that I keep chasing or is it more like all is fair in love and war?

well this relationship has officially turned into war

and my love is now blackened to hate

my memories are all tarnished

when it comes to him-i like it that way

The 6 Year Con

Wrote a novel about this yesterday. Decided to keep taking the high road instead. I'll keep it just for me, when I need a little pick-me-up.

Learned some very interesting information this past weekend.

Knowledge really is power.

I found myself starting to miss you last week. but after this bomb was dropped, by golly do I realize that it is impossible to miss you, because I have no  idea who you are.

I don't blame you for leaving me to "find yourself", you are a shell, you project to people what you want them to see. Did you mean anything you said or did? Do you mean anything you say or do  even now? it must be so tiring being all these different characters. I wasn't wrong when I said that you don't know what love is, you just do as your told. Here's a clue, it WAS right infront of you. that was love.

Looking back now I see so many of the signs. I should have known better than to trust you. but I am amazing for giving you so much faith when you didn't deserve it. That is a true test of my character.

I do feel foolish though.

Can't believe you tricked me for so long. but the good news is, the veil of my mourning has been lifted and the sun is shining bright on my future.

which I have, because I have a plan. do you?

The irony here is just the best! you left me to be happy, and now your lonely and miserable, and I-the weak and vulnerable one-have come out fighting with an inner force driving me, I am already happy! happy that I just dodged a major bullet.

so I should thank you for your infinitely selfish ways. they saved me. I have learned so much these past three weeks. Just because you forced me into this situation doesn't mean you taught me though, you get no credit. this is all me.

you will one day look back on this decision with deep regret, knowing that it was the worst decision you ever made, however I already know that it has been the best decision made for me.

You need to learn that happiness is not a right or privelage, it isn't earned or won, nor does it just happen. It's a choice.